I’ve been a bit absent lately and it’s because of multiple things.
1. I started the new Healthy Momma Bird community, so I’ve been busy encouraging women to lead a healthier life.
2. I have 4 children all in 4 years.
3. I have a design business.
4. I have a Shaklee business.
5. I have a blog business.
6. I am a Wife & Mom which means I’m a: chef, maid, teacher, friend, parent & referee.
7. I have 4 children.
8. I have 4 children.
Lately I’ve been thinking that something has to “give”. I’m not sure what it is yet. But it has to happen. I love doing so many things & there are benefits to everything I do but the #1 thing that comes first is my family.
I’ve been so upset the last couple weeks as I give the girls their bottle before bed, knowing that these moments are ending SOOO soon. I pretty much shed tears every night. I get so sad to know I’m not going to be holding a squishy baby anymore but at the exact same time I’m so thankful that these are our last babies…if that even makes sense.
I get sad when I see how grown up Cohen & Lucas look, wondering if I’ve done everything I could to help them become a good kids. Wondering if I’ve given them the time & attention they deserves. If I’ve played with them enough, read them enough stories, taught them enough ect. And then I think, have I been doing those things for the girls? Should I be doing more?
Oh the life of a Mother, always wondering if it’s “enough.”
As a perfectionist, I’ve had to let many things “go” as far as how I run our house. The house is always cluttered with toys, there are always dishes to be washed or put away. Laundry is literally being done every single day. I always have a bathroom that needs cleaned, a floor that needs vacuumed or sheets that need changed. And I’ve come to realize in these last 4 years that it’s all okay! It doesn’t ALL have to be done RIGHT NOW. (that was a very hard lesson) But I’m still working on letting those other things go.
So, I guess I’m just trying to figure out what I want to let go or if I even HAVE to let something go. I’m just unsure & I really need to pray about it.
Thanks for letting me vent.