5 years ago I was a teacher. I was passionate about my job, my students and didn’t care that my paycheck never reflected how much work I put in to my job. I didn’t care because I loved everything about it. My students were like my own children. I loved them and cared for them as if they were mine. You could probably ask any one of my students if they knew I cared and they’d tell you – absolutely. So when I left teaching to be a stay-at-home Mom I had mixed emotions.
I was overjoyed that I was going to be home with my boys. Something I had always dreamed of being able to do but never thought would be possible with a single income. Moving to England allowed me to start this childhood dream. And then it started.
I suddenly realized I didn’t know who I was without teaching.
Here I was, fulfilling this DREAM of mine and yet I wasn’t happy. I was exhausted, felt guilty for not being happy as a SAHM, especially when this is what I always said I wanted. I felt down right confused. When I’d meet other Moms, I’d always mention the fact that I was a teacher before becoming a Mom. Why?! Who WAS I?! I didn’t know and I wouldn’t know for a few more years.
After a few months of being a SAHM I told my husband I was looking at teaching jobs in the area. I just didn’t think I could do it anymore. I felt so much guilt for even filling out online applications, knowing I’d be sending my kids to a daycare. I told my husband I’d give it a few more months before I made a final decision. Fast forward until the spring of that year and I was getting more comfortable in this ‘new skin’. I was learning what life was like as a SAHM and it wasn’t as bad as those first few months.
It was at this time I threw myself in to the blogging world. I finally felt connected with other Moms again. Time went on and although I loved blogging I just didn’t feel connected anymore. I was unhappy with my health and weight after having the girls and I just needed something to change. It was at this time my blogging actually lead to my new passion. A college friend asked me to review a product that she was now selling and I jumped all over it. I started to research the company and found they were taking submissions for a blogger program to document your weight loss journey over a 6 month period of time. I applied (it was the LAST DAY to apply) and that was it. I totally forgot about it until a few months later when I got an email saying I was selected to join the program. I was SO excited!
Fast forward 3 years.
I am now thriving in my new identity. I feel like I’m “me” again. I am excited, passionate, joyful and most of all I feel like I have purpose again. Not only am I a better Mom and Wife, but I’m a better ME. My faith has grown and my trust in God is back where it should be. I never even knew that partnering with a company that has integrity, passion and longevity would give me so much more than a paycheck each month.